I am so worn out right now.I never get headaches, but when I do they make up for the months I go without them.
tonight is one of those nights. I have an anatomy exam tomorrow, and I'm feel sick just thinking about it. Probably not the best way to handle things, since exams haven't even officially started, and I'm already freaking out. GAH.
I slept till three this afternoon, so I didn't do very much. I did however go to a friend's to get my lab coat for tomorrow, and we caught up a bit. She's one of my best friends here and I thought I knew her pretty well. Like, at least the things that mattered. So you might imagine my surprise that as we were walking out of her dorm, we saw a huge poster with two male stick figures, one bent over and one behind him, with a big slash across them and in huge judgmental font "ANTI-GAY MARCH. SUPPORT NORMALCY!" I literally just stood there for about 30 seconds blinking slowly, my mouth agape. After I composed myself, I turn to my friend, only to find her grinning.
"Isn't it funny?" she asked, inspecting the poster closer for date and time info.
"N-No," I stammered "What the hell is this? Who would ever go to this here in Bucharest??"
Her demeanor changed completely: "Wait, you support..."
She didn't finish her sentence, as if saying the word "gay" would lose her Jesus points. I suddenly found courage "Yeah, I definitely do." I was all about continuing this conversation, but her boyfriend showed up, as if on cue. Walking with them I felt lied to. I wondered how much I knew, or better yet, didn't know about the people I go to school with, the ones that will be in every one of my classes for the next five years. The general attitude about homosexuals in Romania is a negative one, one mostly perpetuated by the elderly/uneducated. I go to school in the capital city, where kids my age think or at least consider thinking differently than what they're spoon fed to believe. I'm just completely disappointed. I really thought my friend was tolerant, if not supported gay rights. She's big on religion, I know this, but I really thought she was different. We're in med school at one of the best school in the country. We've have gay classmates. (significantly less than I had in Michigan, but still) I do plan on bringing this up with her again sometime, just because I'm actually curious as to why she thinks the way she does. I've noticed that being an ally here is not something you publicly announce/ stand for, like I was back home.
Another thing I seriously don't get is why this march needs to happen. I mean, it just seems like such a waste of everything to protest. If you're straight and against homosexuality, why can't you leave it at that? How insecure with your beliefs do you have to be go and march against them? How are they hurting you, in any way?
Oh! And the depiction on the poster, with the slash across it, has obviously summed up a homosexual relationship completely, as the sexual aspect is all there is. There's no emotional ties, or monogamy, just fucking.
jdskfjdfgdgshjrfkjgw. I'm frustrated and my head is pounding. I feel for you Harry Potter, I really do.
xox,
lovethatdoesn'tdiscriminateacrosstheocean.
