march twenty-fifth.

this is turning into failblog, legit. I haven't updated in a while, can't say I've been that busy, but eh. I've been feverish and achy for two days now, missed more school than usual. I have a mini exam tomorrow in anatomy, the one I was supposed to take on monday. boo. this weekend I'm getting away from the city again, although where and when are yet to be determined. I hope I stop being sick and gross by then. 

xox,

loveacrosstheocean.

march nineteenth.

today I failed at going to classes, but I did spend some time studying the skull with an actual one in front of me, so that helped a lot. I really hope between the studying I do on my own and the time with the skull in class that I do well on monday. 

after anatomy me, andreea, ioana gini and mihai went to the only starbucks in bucharest. It was nice to just talk and chill, but mihai came sort of last minute and to be honest I was kind of looking forward to girl talk. whatevs. 

tomorrow I have one eight am (fml) class and I'm doneeee for the week. me and ioana gini are taking a train to bacau at 3, I'm excited for this weekend. 

oooooh in random news, I bought the sweetest candle tonight. so good.

three weeks till I fly home : )

xox,

loveacrosstheocean.

[photo caption: uhhh swiss cheese candle?

YES PLEASE.]

march eighteenth.

I went to all my classes today, figured out when to go for two that I had no clue about, I felt a sense of accomplishment, like I was resolving something  I'd been putting off.

it seems like things I'm putting off are catching up to me emotionally.

listening to the fray is only fueling this emotional uncertainty.

 

"everyone knows I'm in over my head."

xox,

loveacrosstheocean.

march seventeenth.

happy saint patrick's day!

I remember at about 4 pm that this was today, I fail. 

no green clothing, no beer. boo.

on the other hand, I did go to all of my classes today and spent my breaks in the library... win.

I had a really deep conversation with laura in physiology lab, that was nice.

this weekend I'm going to bacau with ioana gini, I'm looking forward to that.

plans have been made (AGAIN) to go la munte, this time next weekend. we'll see if the seventh time's a charm.

anatomy exam on monday, I want to dominate so badly. it's my only priority right now.

such a short amount of time till I go home/to cancun! wheeeeeee.

xox, 

loveacrosstheocean.

[photo caption: lips are so weird. also, I need to pee.]

march sixteenth.

I feel so full of words and ideas right now.

I'm going to try and get some of them out before I start physiology.

I said in my last post that I wanted to talk about regret.

I guess I could say I regret skipping every single class today, but I don't, not really.

I slept through my first two classes, which I planned on going to, and skipped my last one to go to a world festival, which I planned on doing from the beginning. 

I think being able to recognize and feel regret is a good thing, to a certain limit (as with basically everything)

I remember reading myspace bulletins and seeing people declare that they "regret nothing"

this angered me so much! I wanted to yell "LIAR! you DO regret things!"

I suppose I didn't want to be alone in this regret club, wishing I'd done things differently while all these unregretful people frolicked about.

I'm still a member of this unpopular club, although I frequent it less than I used to.

I'm trying to learn that the decisions I make are (usually) mine and mine alone and this means that I need to learn and change my actions if I don't like the consequences.

I don't really know where I'm going with this. 

another thing I've discovered is how much I love having a good conversation with a person. I thought this was reserved only with good friends, but I was proven wrong today. 

Even though I skipped anatomy, and didn't learn that, I talked with people from Brazil, Belgium, Canada, China, Holland, Russia, Poland, Tunisia, and more countries that I'm probably forgetting. I smoked hookah in the Tunisia booth and made paper cranes with people from Japan. I learned how to make cute bracelets from Italy and tasted sake for the first time. I learned so much in those three hours, and even though I technically made a poor choice in not going to class, don't really regret it. 

I also shared these experiences with maria bruneta who I can say is one of my closest friends here. Seeing how passionate she is about traveling and experiencing new things makes me proud to know her. 

we had such good conversations while walking around bucharest in the warm sun eating gogosi, it's a memory that I won't forget any time soon.

On the twenty-third of march, I will have been in romania for six months.

in these six months, so much has changed.

I see things so differently, and it's due in large part to the people I've met and the experiences I've had with them.

I used to count every week here as a huge accomplishment, some amount of time that I "survived" 

Now, I can honestly say that I don't know where six months has gone.

Coming to romania for medical school has made me excited for my future. 

I genuinely love what I learn with the exception of a few things, and not guessing what I'm doing with my future is such a nice feeling, and that's something I definitely don't regret.

xox,

loveacrosstheocean.

[photo caption = bracelet I made in the Italy booth!]

march fifteenth.

another short blog entry, I have to be up in a few hours.

when I get the chance, I want to talk about regret and how I handle it.

I've had an amazing weekend, now I'm going to pass the fuck out.

xox,

loveacrosstheocean.

march fourteenth.

I love my life.

this weekend has been incredible.

I am blessed with many, many incredible people/opportunities in my life.

tomorrow I'll be back in bucharest and I'm going to an orchestra concert with catalina in the evening.

I'm predicting deep, meaningful, fulfilling conversations.

also, on an unrelated note, I love that I watch family guy every night before falling asleep <3

xox,

loveacrosstheocean.

march thirteenth.

a. I love my mother.

b. airport security ftl: I had an "essential travel kit" equipped with nail cutters and cuticle scissors. I mean, I'm glad they failed at checking me throughly since it's a quality travel kit, but just saying.

c. facebook changed things... again. no.

d. vienna is gorgus.

e. we just watched  a shit film: "conversations with other women" decided that in order for this title to be applicable, there should actually be conversations with other women, not an hour and a half long one between a man and a woman. that is all.

xox,

loveacrosstheocean.

march twelfth.

yo yo yiggity yo. I'm currently on a five hour break, so I'm home doing stufff then anatomy lab at 5. I cleaned my rabbit's corner, made myself food, but have yet to make progress with my room. 

of the eight boxes that were strewn about yesterday, only two remain, but there are things covering every part of the floor. as painful as it is when I step on the wrong thing, I find a small comfort that I can have it this way, because it'd be very different at home. 

hmm, maybe I can squeeze a two hour nap in before I have to leave? It never hurts to try...

xox,

loveacrosstheocean.

ps. sheesh y'all, my birthday is in five months!

and one month from today I'll be in cancun, which apparently means "snake egss" in spanish. thank you, genius little sister.

march eleventh!

today I received eight packages from across the ocean! yessssssssssss!

they have brought me so much joy. I love my parents.

school is school, meh. halfway done with this week though, I go home in exactly one month!

wheeeeeeee. I have a lot to be thankful for.

happy birthday sam raad <3

xox, 

loveacrosstheocean.

march ninth.

okay this blog is technically going to be posted on the tenth, but I'm starting it on the ninth, title stays. today I had a fever, skipped my first two classes, I fail. I dragged myself to my anatomy lecture, came home. I bought cough syrup that doesn't do shit, it fails as well. while I was out shopping maria and gabi were out buying a vacuum (grossest word to spell, freal.) but about the vacuum cleaner: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. I am so excited! we've never vacuumed anything, just used lint rollers (fail, once again) and brushes to get the hair off. having one is so weird. I vacuumed everything. it's so pretty. list time because I can't be good at composing stufffff anymore. 

- mom bought me tickets to leave/come back today. I stay home in april for more than two weeks. win!

- claudia, another one of my housemates, had her boyfriend over today, and it was awkward. he called maria in to talk to her, and gabi followed, I was under the bed with the vacuum cleaner. I found sunglasses, so I put them on and was going to creep in to be funny till I heard what they were saying. he was asking how they felt about him moving into claudia's room. uhhhhhhhh. then I kind of didn't move because that is a sucky, sucky thing, and then I thought of how harry had that dream that he was outside of the room voldemort was in with nagini the snake and how he was listening in and that's when everyone turned to see me on all fours in the middle of the hallway with huge sunglasses on. fml. but about him moving in, blegh. I went to the kitchen to get milk like a dummy, thinking this was over, and I find maria and claudia talking. maria gets up to leave and claudia gets all sweet towards me. I know what's coming so I'm blinking desperately towards maria to not leave, so obvi she does. claudia then proceeds to ask me how I feel, I proceed to be awkward but spit something out about not feeling comfortable and that there might be too many people if he comes. I don't know why I suck so much. I should have been completely normal and told her the truth without beating around the bush. sigh. speaking of sucking, it is currently 12:12 am and I present my (unstarted) physiology project in less than 12 hours. FAILFAILFAILFAIL. a few more games of blockles and one more family guy episode....

xox,

loveacrosstheocean.

march eighth.

finally, (potential) progress regarding my illness: I'm getting better! 

this weekend was hell, I can't remember the last time I was this sick.

after my fever subsided some on saturday, I showered and water on my skin genuinely hurt. ugh.

I didn't go to the orchestra, I figured no one wanted to hear Vivaldi with bouts of coughing scattered in. Last night I watched "p.s I love you" with gabi, it was cute. this morning I was feeling like death again, skipped church and woke up to gifts galore. here on march eighth it's woman's day ( I know right?! cuuuute.) and it's celebrated nationally and it's just lovely to get flowers left and right. too bad I haven't left the apartment in two days, so the flowers I got were collected by others and given to me.

physiology report is nonexistent, and I feel guilty because now that I can sit up I feel like I should be making progress. blgjkfds.

sigh. another week begins tomorrow, and I feel absolutely drained. 

34 days until I get to go homeee. wheee.

xox, 

loveacrosstheocean.

march sixth.

it was only the first 8 am physiology course of the semester and I feel so discouraged. 

the material is hard and way too condensed in a three-hour class where our 70 year old professor just talks. did I mention it's at 8 am?? this morning it was physically painful to get up. I had a fever and chills, so getting dressed was an accomplishment in it's own. after class me and diana, andreea, elena and gogo went to a pub. It was cute, but about 2 hours in I started getting a fever again, so I left. I made it home but literally could not stop shaking, I was so cold but I was burning up. *cue JB song*

tried to sleep, managed for 40 min, had crazy dreams, woke up. 

my housemate, maria is sick as well, bah. my other housemate came in when she heard me coughing, asked if she could make me tea, and asked hypothetically what I'd want to eat. mmm yeah, she's definitely at the grocery store buying ingredients (without me knowing). I think I'm pretty lucky.

tomorrow night if I feel less shitty I'm going to the orchestra, with free tickets from my marketing professor. life's cute sometimes. but bot when my packages STILL aren't here! dsjfkdgd

xox,

loveacrosstheocean.

march fifth.

I've almost survived my first week of the new semester! huzzah. one more class tomorrow at 8 am then doneeeeee for the week. classes are intense(r) this semester. For physiology we all have to present once in the semester and I volunteered to go first, not realizing presentations are different here. my lab assistant was like "yeah you'll get about 15 minutes, and you can have notes in front of you..." what?? 15 minutes? talking about gastric acid? and the note thing was cute... like I was planning on NOT having them? wrong. but since no one's gone before me, I have a chance to set the bar and I really want to make it good. other things... hmm.

a. my packages still haven't come. I am so antsy. 

b. I've been listening to bo burnham so much lately, more than usual. 

c. I'm sick. today I rubbed that vick's vapor rub on my chest and it basically did nothing but make me gross. blergh.

d. I get to go home soon!

need sleeeep.

xox, 

loveacrosstheocean.